A State of Mind.

Losing my identity
Like vapour from a kettle
Switching off all the time
Like a bad music channel on TV

Feeling useless
Sometimes helpless
Passionless to be honest
Pleading innocent

My true colours are vivid
Just like my friends who betrayed me
I always wonder if it's payback time
Behold; I did the same to many

I don't have a clear plan
I never had one
It's not always black and white
Let's try to find out the beauty of grey

Disconnect.

You took that decision
There is always a turning point
Tonight I regret it
Tonight I hate it

I want to go back
I want to grow big
I want to believe
I want to be me

Age is just a number
Look to people with no disbelief
Stop hating
Inhale

Embrace
Smile
Exhale
Start loving

Twilgiht.

Outside that door
There is a new and simple life
No worries, no sophisticated language
Just regrets and traffic

Behind that door
A world of corporate flavours
Different characters, different types
Similar attitude and goals

You've always wanted to live inside
Changing your jeans with leather pants
Buying a Rolex and maybe some glasses too
Sure, who wouldn't want to?

Pressure after pressure
But there's pressure everywhere
Time never stops
Age doesn't go back

Improvised and still can't get it
Easy to be impressed and flying
That's the person in me
Afraid is the new trend

Grateful and didn't expect so many
Blessed and happy to be so
Some things didn't go as I expected
Or maybe I did, but now I realise it

The New LIfe.

Oh my oh my

What have I missed?

This is quite a unique start

White and big; easier than I have thought

Still a long way to go

I've got all the time in the world

Quitter I have been in the past

It gotta happen, one way or the other

When the week ends to days

The longing that never lasts

It's time to get the grip of things

Turn on, tune in, cop out

Am I right or wrong?

Am I even understood?

I make sense only to me

I am making history

Unlock the jagged pills

Serenity, now, please

See the world from my eyes

Make the most of it

The Gamble.

We were going up to the 5th floor
She came in, I knew she lived here
Wanted to strike an impression
One minute was all I had

My friend with me had no clue about her
Neither did he know what's on my mind
I was always mysterious, and no, I didn't try so hard
I didn't try at all actually, it's just my nature

The three of us looked into separate directions
I kept my calm and talked to my friend
Little spoken in a quiet voice
Just like we all do in places like this
We were on the 4th floor and I had to talk now

I knew both of us have someone in common
I brought his name up to my friend
My friend was shocked and wondered why?
Why am I mentioning that guy's name now?
I could see her noting that down
It was our stop; goodbyes, we all hate it

Next day, I received a call on my house phone
Mobiles were non existent back then
It was my friend; no, not from last night
It's the common guy I have with the girl

'A girl I know likes you,
She wants to talk to you over the phone,
She also wants to meet up with you.
Are you interested?,' he said

We talked but never met
Swamped and hoovered in exams
We had to postpone
It was not meant to be

We never talked in real life
We see each other and we both remember
We will never forget that phone call
We will never forget that night...in the elevator

Struggle.

A small thing can do wonders
Happiness, joy and satisfaction
Free time kills the passion in you
Quench the ultimate taboos

Words spoken no longer heard
Little things no longer mean
Impression awaits at the end
A big man's talk is not advisory

The past I never lived intrigues me
Side by side, support and abide
I don't know if it's you or me
Deciding fate leads to misery

Twenty Eight but little achieved
Dazzling I thought it would be
My time is precious now, countless
Twenty Nine, will I see you shine?

The Mist.

I walked into a valley of kings
But I didn't see no bling blings
The traffic suffocated me I had to escape
Resorting to the clear skies I rendered

Dropped off my heavy glory
To North I shall walk
In order not to feel restrained
Late has become the new trait

Reciting prayers I was taught by mom
Trying to digest my gut-feeling
I want to, but I don't have to
Where did my confidence go?

Thinking too much of the future
I have to, but I don't want to
Back to basics; Earth, I surrender
To North I shall go

Resurrection.

Happy Monday!

2012 already! Who would have thought we'll see that coming back in the 80's?

The cats in the cradle are trying to escape
Windows shut yet the breeze is thick
The life we once knew is fading away
Torture, panic and hunger became my middle name
Listen to the voices within you and speak
To no man's land we will roll

Take off that throne and get on the ghost ship
They speak a language we can't entail
Dreams of a better tomorrow will be served
A dark past will always be dark

The memories are yours to destroy
Don't be afraid my friend, it's time to walk away
It's hard but that's life, you have done it before
The halo is waiting, and I am coming home